If anyone is in touch with his or her body, it's a dancer, right? Not exactly. Growing up in the dance world
surrounded by mirrors, overly critical teachers and obsessively thin friends, I learned to rely on other's opinions
for how I felt, looked and moved.
During the "no-pain no-gain" '80s. I moved from dance to aerobics, punishing myself into shape. Thin
and toned but injured and burnt-out, I questioned my approach. Relying on external sources and escapist exercise to
define how I looked and felt didn't seem to be working. Being surrounded by people who were more interested in
conquering their bodies than nurturing them didn't help either. The need for change became obvious. I had to start
"working in" instead of "working out".
ENTER STOTT PILATES
Like most people who get turned on to this "mind-body" method of fitness, I first heard about
pilates exercise through a friend. She told me that I'd love the way it would make me look and feel. After years
of pursuing the perfect form, the operative word for me was "feel".
She referred me to a STOTT PILATES STUDIO in Toronto, where they teach a contemporary approach to pilates, one
which incorporated modern knowledge about the body, such as restoring the neutral curves of the spine instead
of flattening them as is typical in traditional pilates and other conventional forms of exercise.
What makes this method of exercise different is more about 'process' than about results. It's about focusing
the mind on how your body moves, developing a strong and stable torso, then building upon this foundation to rebalance
and realign the rest of your body.
What really resonated with me was the idea of working from the inside out instead of working from the outside in.
And so I embarked on what has become the quintessential part of my journey towards genuine well-being.
Through a series of one-on-one sessions each with knowledgeable, patient and inspiring instructors
I was introduced to a variety of exercises I'd never seen before, some performed on a mat, others on specially
designed resistance equipment. All of them incorporated proper alignment and movement quality, and all were dance-like
in their fluidity.
At my first session, my instructor placed me in a gentle, reclining, half-moon-shaped device called a Spine
Corrector and said "round your body over, relax your arms over the bars, close your eyes and just breathe
deeply, into your back."
As I learned the basics, a routine was customized to accommodate my needs and abilities. For example, I have
relatively strong abdominal muscles but my right knee has taken a beating over the years, so my routine was designed
to challenge my strengths and strengthen my weaknesses, while maintaining proper breathing and posture.
There are hundreds of possible exercises and variations used to customize a routine. Like yoga, all of them have
names, for example "Rolling Like a Ball" (to strengthen the deep abdominal muscles) and the "Swan
Dive" (to strengthen the muscles of the back). But the exercises aren't static. They involve
three-dimensional movement, which has the added benefit of improving circulation, range of motion and coordination.
The exercises can be as simple (in principle only) as an "Ab Prep", where you lie on your back and
exhale as you curl up gradually reaching for your feet, or the "Short Spine", which requires you to
balance on a bed-like platform (called a Reformer) while extending your legs, suspended against resistance by a
rope and pulley system, up to the ceiling and then back down.
What I like most about the process is how integrated each exercise is with the deep muscles and structure of the
torso. People talk about centering in movement all the time. But it wasn't until I applied the principle of a
neutral pelvis and spine (neither tucked under, nor arched back) that I was able to feel truly aligned and connected,
from head to toe.
The biggest challenge for me has been shedding the auto-pilot mind-set of "exercise-as-escape"
and embracing the notion of "exercise -as-experience", learning to concentrate on performing each
movement properly rather than mindlessly following an instructor. Contrary to what I initially imagined, the
approach leaves you feeling mentally and physically revitalized rather than drained.
While I feel I've only just scratched the surface of this work, I now know why it's being pursued by everyone
from ex-dancers and fitness nuts to physiotherapy patients and elite athletes. Simply put, it feels great to do. Or,
as my friend puts it, "It combines the best of western and eastern thinking about the body"; what
meditation is to the soul.
As for results, the list is long. But for me, the most significant has been a combination of increased body
awareness and virtual elimination of self-criticism. Having accomplished this, all of the other meaningful results
Here are just some of the benefits:
Isolates, activates and conditions deep muscles
Builds core abdominal and back strength
Flattens abdominals and restores natural posture
Develops strength, flexibility and endurance
Tones and elongates without adding bulk
Enhances mobility and agility
Improves athletic performance
Alleviates pain and tension
While there's no promise of spiritual healing, from my experience, simply learning to feel tends to free up
energy for other more worthy pursuits.